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Post by Mira on Mar 9, 2009 12:52:16 GMT -5
If you don't mind me asking, what is your ethnic background?
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Post by Caitshidhe on Mar 9, 2009 12:59:32 GMT -5
I'll tell you if you promise not to laugh.
I'm Italian, German, and Dutch Jew. I swear I'm not making this up.
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Post by Mira on Mar 9, 2009 13:07:55 GMT -5
I don't see what is so weird about that combo. I am Irish/Scotch-Irish/Scotch/English/German; is that weird?
I would've guessed Greek/Italian so I guess I was sort of close.
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Post by Caitshidhe on Mar 9, 2009 13:19:28 GMT -5
It's just that I have WWII right here in my genes. My DNA doesn't get along with itself--it won't even stay in a double helix anymore.
People have always had amusingly variant guesses as to my background. In the past, I've had people guess that I'm Greek, Italian, Turkish, Spanish, and French.
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Post by schizophonic on Mar 9, 2009 13:44:05 GMT -5
*sighs* You guys all do wonderful things for my absolute lack of self-esteem. As apparently hard as it is to believe, I have zero confidence in myself, so holding my head up on a walk is a huge step for me since I normally just stare at the ground. So I'm sloooowly learning to be a bit more confident. And a lot of people are apparently very jealous of my hair. (Which is refreshing from the people who tell me to chop it off.) You don't really come off as lacking in self esteem on here, far as I've noticed, anyway. Not that people are incapable of seeming different on the net, but still. |
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Post by Caitshidhe on Mar 9, 2009 13:58:19 GMT -5
Thank you. It's easier to pretend to be confident on the internet. Also, most of the people here gave me a chance to prove myself and actually like me--whereas in the real world I've not had that opportunity. It comes from being totally invisible or bullied outright for a very long time. FSTDT helps me be a little more secure. ^_^
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Post by peanutfan on Mar 9, 2009 15:13:57 GMT -5
You were wearing a white tee shirt and jeans?
The fact that the rain didn't start right then proves there is no God.
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Post by Caitshidhe on Mar 9, 2009 15:38:51 GMT -5
I was wearing a bra, it's not like anybody would have seen anything if it DID rain. Funnily enough, it was threatening to rain all day and it never did.
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Post by erictheblue on Mar 9, 2009 16:26:21 GMT -5
Thank you. It's easier to pretend to be confident on the internet. QFT I was always very shy through high school and into college. When I was about 20, I discovered a newsgroup that I loved, and a few years after that, stumbled across an IRC chat room that made me feel welcome. Between those two, I got a lot more confident. Oh, and I will add my jealously about your hair. Although I don't think I could pull off hair that long, I love long hair. (Mine is currently to my shoulder blades and still growing.) |
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Post by schizophonic on Mar 9, 2009 19:53:07 GMT -5
Thank you. It's easier to pretend to be confident on the internet. Also, most of the people here gave me a chance to prove myself and actually like me--whereas in the real world I've not had that opportunity. It comes from being totally invisible or bullied outright for a very long time. FSTDT helps me be a little more secure. ^_^ All true statements. Unfortunate that people don't get those chances in the real world. |
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Post by Caitshidhe on Mar 10, 2009 11:15:24 GMT -5
It probably doesn't help that I've been in the same area for many, many years and haven't had the opportunity to have a fresh start. I think that if I left this place and started over somewhere else, I could probably be much more confident--around here, my past experiences with bullying and the like control everything that I do. Which, you know, sucks. So, the internet it is!
Besides, you people are all waaayyy cooler. XD
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Post by schizophonic on Mar 10, 2009 14:17:55 GMT -5
It probably doesn't help that I've been in the same area for many, many years and haven't had the opportunity to have a fresh start. I think that if I left this place and started over somewhere else, I could probably be much more confident--around here, my past experiences with bullying and the like control everything that I do. Which, you know, sucks. So, the internet it is! Besides, you people are all waaayyy cooler. XD Awww...Shucks. I kind of came out of my shell in high school. I have two people to credit, one kind of ironically. They're both kind of intertwined, so I'll just start with the ironic bit. My band instructor took my lack of confidence at the start of my Freshman year and decided to label me with it for the rest of high school. So I got put down and passed over quite a bit. It became evident pretty soon that he played favorites, but I really didn't care because both the other trombonists were better than me. It's not lack of confidence, they were just that damn good. So Junior year, enter a new crop of brass, and there were four of us. I managed to get passed up and left at third trombone. Wouldn't have bothered me much, except I knew what I was doing. Well, one of them became my friend and later my girlfriend, and so we practiced a lot together. And the thing is, I'd learn both her parts and mine before she had learned hers. It's not that she was bad, mind, it's just for the first time in my life, I knew I was better. At some point, it just clicked in my mind that the guy was an ass, and I shouldn't let him hurt my confidence anymore, and I did a 180. I started showing up early, projecting my tone, and all around enjoying it. And it didn't hurt that my girlfriend was there, encouraging me to be loud. Same story outside of band. She really helped me get over this innate sense of shyness that kept me completely unassertive. Being exposed to her and her friends and family really helped me develop at least some personal confidence. Not that I'm perfect, mind. My self esteem crashes fairly often. But at least I've got some mojo going.  |
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Post by Caitshidhe on Mar 10, 2009 14:38:52 GMT -5
Geez. I wish I could find a girlfriend like her, she sounds awesome. Methinks I need the Confidence Lessons. As it stands, I don't even normally turn around when someone is talking to me because my default reaction is that they're talking to someone else.
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Post by schizophonic on Mar 10, 2009 14:52:07 GMT -5
I wish I could find another. Thing ended kinda poorly. I don't regret the experience, just the way it ended. I'm better for having known her, so it was a net gain.
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Post by canadian mojo on Mar 10, 2009 18:00:09 GMT -5
But at least I've got some mojo going. * ears perk up * |
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