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Post by Vypernight on Jul 15, 2010 5:44:18 GMT -5
My God, I'm ashamed of my fundie background. I thought all gay people were going to hell, I believed creation "science", I believed other religions shouldn't be allowed to be open about their faith in this country and I believed in the rapture so I was literally constantly looking over my shoulder to make sure my family didn't vanish. How fucked up. I'm glad to have put that shit behind me. And as an added bonus, I turned out gay. ;D I'm so much happier now than I was back then, which is why it pisses me off when my parents tell me the only reason I don't believe in God is because I don't want to put "effort" into believing in him, following the Bible and listening in church. Way to trivialize my feelings. Considering that not believing, and rather thinking for yourself requires a hell of a lot of effort and courage, rather than the other way around.
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Post by Dragon Zachski on Jul 15, 2010 12:25:17 GMT -5
My God, I'm ashamed of my fundie background. I thought all gay people were going to hell, I believed creation "science", I believed other religions shouldn't be allowed to be open about their faith in this country and I believed in the rapture so I was literally constantly looking over my shoulder to make sure my family didn't vanish. How fucked up. I'm glad to have put that shit behind me. And as an added bonus, I turned out gay. ;D I'm so much happier now than I was back then, which is why it pisses me off when my parents tell me the only reason I don't believe in God is because I don't want to put "effort" into believing in him, following the Bible and listening in church. Way to trivialize my feelings. Aside from your parents (Mom left Christianity and fundamentalism alongside me, and Dad is perfectly accepting of the fact that I'm no longer a Christian, which utterly surprises me), you described me as well You must be my twin brother from another family
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Post by Shane for Wax on Sept 1, 2010 18:29:04 GMT -5
I just want to bump this up before it gets to be too far away.
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Post by Smurfette Principle on Sept 3, 2010 20:51:30 GMT -5
I used to think that birth was the product of two people loving each other a lot, and God reached down and gave the baby the dad's DNA. I didn't know how sex worked until I was ten, and even then I was still hazy on the exact mechanics.
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Post by Shane for Wax on Sept 5, 2010 0:44:27 GMT -5
I don't even remember when I learned how sex worked...
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Post by Madame Scarlet on Sept 10, 2010 11:59:17 GMT -5
When I was in middle school, I was incredibly concerned with preserving my friends' virginity. This was a rather difficult task since at least two of them had a higher sex drive than the average male, and I'm not sure why they put up with me. I stopped trying when it clearly became a lost cause.
In high school I attended the Christian brainwash camp known as Summit Ministries, and I came back incredibly smug and feeling ready to tell off all those crazy evolutionists. Oh yeah, because of this conference I went through a phase where I thought I was going to wait until marriage to ever kiss again. Eric and Leslie Ludy are an evil, evil couple who write books on why teenagers should be ashamed of having sex drives and they planted this idea in my head. I broke up with my internet boyfriend because he wasn't Christian enough anymore.
Right after this I met my current boyfriend, who questioned every stupid thing I said and was definitely not nice about it. He never called me stupid, but he had no problem telling me my ideas were. Being attracted to a guy who was physically there as opposed to 3,000 miles away made me realize how ridiculous waiting until marriage to kiss is, so that got tossed out fairly quickly. Eventually the doubt that had built up from his questioning my ideas and correcting false things I'd been told by creationists got to be too much and I lost my faith.
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Post by balthazarthewise on Sept 17, 2010 18:45:13 GMT -5
As an ex fundie catholic type (not the anti-Vatican 2 types, I hated them even worse than the liberals), I honestly entertained the idea of theocracy, and believed that dissent should be stifled completely because "the church does your thinking for you."
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Post by Nyarai on Sept 17, 2010 20:30:09 GMT -5
My parents were never hardcore fundies. In fact, I once remember overhearing my mother say, after our first move, "Any christian church is fine, just not Baptist." I asked her why, but she never answered (Eight year olds, no respect). Wasn't until I joined FSTDT that I figured it out.
Anyway, when I was in elementary school, I was majorly depressed (turns out that I had ADD and no one ever noticed). While I didn't really understand Christianity and what it meant, I was like a little RRite in that I really wanted to just die and go to Heaven, where I'd get to be happy forever.
In high school, I was even more depressed (less wanting to die, oddly - death was scary) and I started to majorly doubt God's existence. Then I finally saw a psychiatrist/therapist, who managed to fix all my mood disorders (well most, it fixed my depression but did nothing for my concentration) and figured it was kind of a dick move for God not to help me get better and I had to suffer for two decades before getting help on my own.
Was weird pondering all that again. Doesn't help that it sounds a lot crazier than it seemed at the time.
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Post by clockworkgirl21 on Sept 18, 2010 19:13:21 GMT -5
I was like that. I had bad depression since I was really little, but I wasn't diagnosed and treated until I was about 10. I wanted to die so badly and just go to Heaven.
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Post by Trillian on Sept 22, 2010 9:45:23 GMT -5
I was like that. I had bad depression since I was really little, but I wasn't diagnosed and treated until I was about 10. I wanted to die so badly and just go to Heaven. OMG, as a mother, this is very scary. I don't mean to pry (either of you) but why didn't your parents do anything? Did you express this desire to your parents in any way?
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