co-worker committed suicide

[Aqualung]

Just came back from the store; I had to go shopping and stopped in the bakery to see if next week's schedule was up and write down that I need off for a dentist appointment, and my manager told me this guy who used to work in the deli and then in the meat dept. killed himself the other night.

....I didn't know him that well. He liked to bug me; when I was new he would go in the back and set the oven to go off when nothing was in it. Mostly I just ignored him, but I gave him shit once in a while too. I didn't hate him or even not like him. Now I feel bad.

My manager said it had something to do with the one decorator who he apparently had a thing for, but she is in a relationship (although she complains about her boyfriend all the time and how he won't propose and etc.). Said his dad found him in his car and that he had taken pills and alcohol, and they found a note but she didn't know what it said.

I just...wish I'd been nicer to him and that I'd gotten to know him a little better is all.

And headache, if you're still around, if you say one word about this I swear to Bast I'll come over there and rip your balls off and feed them to my cat.

[Bojangles]

((((((Aqualung))))))

I'm really sorry to hear that. It's very very sad.

*sends big hugs your way*

[m52nickerson]

Sorry to hear that. There is nothing you could have done.

[Vene]

Mar 31, 2009 14:24:44 GMT -5 m52nickerson said:

Sorry to hear that. There is nothing you could have done.

This, very much this.

[antichrist]

Mar 31, 2009 14:24:44 GMT -5 m52nickerson said:

Sorry to hear that. There is nothing you could have done.

Thirded

Although the coworker he had a thing for may have been the final trigger, I doubt it was the "reason". People who commit suicide are in a darker place than one rejection can cause.

[Jebediah]

I'm really sorry to hear that. And I agree, there wasn't a thing you could have done.

((((Aqualung))))

[Thejebusfire]

Mar 31, 2009 14:24:44 GMT -5 m52nickerson said:

Sorry to hear that. There is nothing you could have done.

This.
It's not your fault.

[dantesvirgil]

Mar 31, 2009 14:32:40 GMT -5 @antichrist said:

Mar 31, 2009 14:24:44 GMT -5 m52nickerson said:

Sorry to hear that. There is nothing you could have done.

Thirded

Although the coworker he had a thing for may have been the final trigger, I doubt it was the "reason". People who commit suicide are in a darker place than one rejection can cause.

This is very true. It's also a darker place than your coworkers being nice to you can reach. So please don't feel guilty about this. This seems to be the season for really bad news. Sorry.

{{{aqualung}}}

[Aqualung]

I know that. *group FSTDT hug* It was just such a shock. My head hurts....

[starbrewer]

Mar 31, 2009 14:32:40 GMT -5 @antichrist said:

Mar 31, 2009 14:24:44 GMT -5 m52nickerson said:

Sorry to hear that. There is nothing you could have done.

Thirded

Although the coworker he had a thing for may have been the final trigger, I doubt it was the "reason". People who commit suicide are in a darker place than one rejection can cause.

As someone who still takes fluoxetine (generic prozac), I can say that there was something wrong with him to begin with.

[caretaker]

Citalopram and mirtazapine here. Aqua, I know you're aware that you couldn't have stopped this, but it's natural to feel guilty that you never took the time to get to know somebody who's passed away. Everyone feels that way. But nobody knows if/when/how we're going to die, and rather than dwell on that, we just carry on with our lives.

*Snuggles* What I'm trying to say is don't dwell too much on your behaviour with him, or on missed opportunities. Getting to know everyone we meet would make the world grind to a halt, y'know? Try not to let it upset you.

[schizophonic]

Yiiikes. I'm really sorry to hear.

[The Lazy One]

((((((((Aqualung))))))))

Losing someone you know, even if you don't know them well, is very hard. I'm sorry to hear about this.

[devilschaplain2]

Mar 31, 2009 14:21:23 GMT -5 Aqualung said:

Just came back from the store; I had to go shopping and stopped in the bakery to see if next week's schedule was up and write down that I need off for a dentist appointment, and my manager told me this guy who used to work in the deli and then in the meat dept. killed himself the other night.

....I didn't know him that well. He liked to bug me; when I was new he would go in the back and set the oven to go off when nothing was in it. Mostly I just ignored him, but I gave him shit once in a while too. I didn't hate him or even not like him. Now I feel bad.

My manager said it had something to do with the one decorator who he apparently had a thing for, but she is in a relationship (although she complains about her boyfriend all the time and how he won't propose and etc.). Said his dad found him in his car and that he had taken pills and alcohol, and they found a note but she didn't know what it said.

I just...wish I'd been nicer to him and that I'd gotten to know him a little better is all.

And headache, if you're still around, if you say one word about this I swear to Bast I'll come over there and rip your balls off and feed them to my cat.

I had loads of trouble because I was suicidal for so long. I had suicidal thoughts up until college when I finally saw a therapist and a psychiatrist. Psychiatrist gave me Zoloft (I was taking Prozac before that and it did nothing for me) and I talked to my therapist for a year before the college let her go (had to make a lot of financial cut-backs, you see). At any rate, when you're in that mindset sometimes it doesn't matter even when people are genuinely sympathetic to you or try to get to know you. Depression completely warps your perception of life and I know the few people who tried to get close to me I completely blew off--looking back on it, I have no idea why I did that though....like I said, depression messes with your mind.

[Lady Renae]

*hold* I'm sorry... I really am. That's never an easy thing to deal with. If there's anything we can do...