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Post by Shane for Wax on Jun 13, 2011 2:22:39 GMT -5
Five is a lovely number isn't it? Yes it is.
Relapse!
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Post by wmdkitty on Jun 13, 2011 2:37:39 GMT -5
Oh, Shane.
*hugs*
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Post by DeadpanDoubter on Jun 13, 2011 2:41:11 GMT -5
 Shaney...*joins the hug* |
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Post by Shane for Wax on Jun 13, 2011 2:42:23 GMT -5
Thanks. But it was bound to happen. I know what causes it I just can't stop the cause.
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Post by lighthorseman on Jun 13, 2011 2:48:46 GMT -5
Thanks. But it was bound to happen. I know what causes it I just can't stop the cause. What causes it? |
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Post by wmdkitty on Jun 13, 2011 3:02:40 GMT -5
Thanks. But it was bound to happen. I know what causes it I just can't stop the cause. Well, you have a starting point for recovery, then. You know what triggers the behavior. So... it seems to me that if you can derail the triggers somehow? I don't know... I'm not an expert, unless you count a lifetime of being in treatment for mental illness. As for me, I just know that it makes me feel better for a while, until the guilt sets in and I feel even worse for giving in to the impulse. I think, though... I think that maybe it's because my depression and anxiety tend to come out as RAEG, and I don't want to direct it at other people -- I know that anyone caught in my cross-hairs (especially when I'm stupid and haven't taken my meds) doesn't deserve whatever irrational angry!rant I'm dishing out -- so I direct it inwards, and that leads to self-destructive behaviors. Either way... someone's going to get hurt, and given the choice, I'd rather hurt myself. Does... does that make any sense? Or is it just the rationalization of a sick mind? |
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Post by Shane for Wax on Jun 13, 2011 3:20:23 GMT -5
I can't really derail the triggers considering the triggers are other people plus my own insecurities.
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Post by wmdkitty on Jun 13, 2011 3:27:42 GMT -5
I can't really derail the triggers considering the triggers are other people plus my own insecurities. Yeah. Can't really control other people, and insecurities... well... battling your inner demons (so to speak) is difficult at best. *hugs* Just know that you're a good person, and people do care about you. Yeah. Even me. |
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Post by Shane for Wax on Jun 13, 2011 3:37:27 GMT -5
Kinda hard to 'know' if I don't feel it. Because I know I'm a bitch and everything else. I don't feel like I contribute much of anything. And that's part of my own little trigger.
I know people care but it's hard for me to care about myself as much as people say they care about me.
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Post by wmdkitty on Jun 13, 2011 23:27:30 GMT -5
Hey, mods, can we sticky this thread?
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Post by Mlle Antéchrist on Jun 14, 2011 7:27:50 GMT -5
I know people care but it's hard for me to care about myself as much as people say they care about me. I can relate to this. It's a tough place to be in. *hugs* |
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Post by Shane for Wax on Jun 14, 2011 9:58:56 GMT -5
Honestly? The only thing keeping me alive is the fact that I care about other people.
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Post by katsuro on Jun 14, 2011 11:44:43 GMT -5
Quick question for anyone in the UK and in the know - if I wanted to get myself checked out for some kind of mental health related issue where would I go for that? Just to my GP or what?
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Post by lighthorseman on Jun 14, 2011 12:04:59 GMT -5
Quick question for anyone in the UK and in the know - if I wanted to get myself checked out for some kind of mental health related issue where would I go for that? Just to my GP or what? Always the best starting point |
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Post by katsuro on Jun 14, 2011 12:25:22 GMT -5
Don't even know who my gp is now, might be embarassing when I go to make an appointment. Hope he's good, my last GP was an ignorant, uninterested cunt.
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Shaney...*joins the hug*
